I really did this. I have officially became a published author before the age of 25. This journey took so much discipline and consistency. I wanted so bad to be able to share what I have learned during the initial journey of awakening. The fears, the losses, the feels. I wanted people to have a place to start, because there is an overwhelming amount of information out there, and so many people aiming to grab on to you and push their beliefs your way. This book isn't based on beliefs, its based on gathered information i have studied and felt prepared enough to share. It took 2 and a half years
Being an artist, the only writing I ever use to do was poetry. I decided to implement a small portion of that in the beginning of my book, just to showcase an emotional element to such serious information. I included images within the text so I could show
visual examples of certain things. I chose not to write a large book because large books an me intimidating to someone newly introduced to spiritual consciousness. I hand wrote my book because my writing style involves lots of scratch outs, circles, highlights, and balled up paper. I also was working at the time so any free moment I got, I wrote down an idea in a notebook.
Seeing all of my efforts of filling up a notebook with messy cursive motivated me so much to keep going. I am definitely a visual person, I have to see the vision or it just wont get done. I always chose to write during times of heightened positivity. I didn't want to self sabotage myself.
This process ended way differently than it started, there were so many chapters that did not make it yall.... Going into the writing process, you do not expect to trash so many areas of your book. You end up developing a sense of attachment to pages you worked so hard on, but if it does not work with the flow of the book you have to let it go. I pulled spreads on what should be added and removed. Physical spiritual work and lots of studying made this book possible.
Near the end of the book, I started trying to figure out my cover, I wanted to revamp an old sketch of a woman with hair of the sun sitting on a sphere that had an extraterrestrial element to the fetus within it and turn it into a painting. It didnt end up working out because I decided to lessen the inital vision and make it more cover like, but the prints did not work. Plus the quality of my digital image was awful.
matches the overall idea of the book more so than a ball of creation falling into water lol. It finally looks like what it should. After laying all of my books on my ancestral altar for my people to look over it and help me with adds and removals, I finally finished.
There was slight adversity with my book, not with the content but with things like spelling. So edits were done over and over. Being self published, there will be some occasional disappointments and occurrences. I had a person tell my the damn thing was falling apart just to hurt me. Lies to break me down. PEOPLE WILL SEE YOU WIN AND WANT TO STEAL YOUR JOY. Don't let them do that... execute your vision.